![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
these are my girls. love them to death. they are the definition of friendship, sure we have our ups and downs, but at the end of the day, i know they have my back and are willing to work at our friendship and not be letting one negative event significantly affect and destroy the friendship.
i need to start eating healthier, or at least in moderation. i've been eating so much crap, that the weight that i lost is almost totally gained back...well not totally, almost all of it is back. this disappoints me, but it's entirely my fault. i have been eating out way too much, and athough i love to wine and dine, i need to simmer down as i can see it's affecting the weight and also the wallet. i want to look fabulous for this wedding i'm going to be a bridesmaid in, and the best way to start is to first of all start developing better eating habits. i also should be working out..that whole gym membership i had is being put to waste, but hopefully this mission of mine will jump start my use of it.
this wedding is going to cost me heaps of money. which goes back to the whole, i need to start saving bit. i can't just go gallavanting anymore, spending 2 dollars when i only make a buck. a great example of this was when i recently bought myself an iPod Touch. this of course was an impulse buy. i had a crappy day at work, and unfortunately for me, i wanted an iTouch, so literally after this crappy shift, i went to buy myself it. the thing cost me a small fortune, and unfortunately, it wasn't compatible with my computer...to the point where my computer crashed. now, this is really shitty, because the small fortune that i paid for the bloody iPod is going to be, in the end, a large fortune, because now i'll have to buy a new computer. lesson learned. impulse buying is never wise. but because i'm proud, i'm not going to be 'ooopsit aboot mah paeerchase'.
starting to feel 'lonely' around this holiday season...yes, it was expected, but i think what triggered it was a crappy movie i saw with the guys yesterday - 'Four Christmases'. the premise of this movie was centered around love and family...it was still a crappy movie, but something in it triggered the lonely bug inside of me. i've been single for a little while now, and although i get's me the 'basics', that doesn't make me feel better emotionally..
it's funny, i think i can get used to this whole 'not having expectations' bit. something happened the other day, in which normally i would hope for something to happen, and it didn't, where the end result would be me feeling like shit and disappointed. but this time, i didn't hold those same expectations, and of course things didn't follow through as planned, but i felt indifferent. i appreciate follow-through, but if follow through happens now, i look at it (whatever it may be) as a bonus. i suppose it's good and bad at the same time.
Mint Condition - Nothing Left to Say
Beyonce - If I Were a Boy
Robin Thicke - The Sweetest Love
Beyonce & Stevie Wonder - So Amazing
John Legend - Love Won't Let Me Wait
Alicia Keys - Mr. Man
Maxwell - Whenever Wherever Whatever
Eric Benet - Love of My Own
Eric Benet - You're the Only One
Musiq Soulchild - Teachme
Keith Sweat - Sexiest Girl
Keith Sweat (feat. Athena Cage) - Butterscotch
favourites at the moment:
hangout: Symposium
chocolate bar: Kit-Kat
joke: MMMBAAWWW
courtesy is always a favourite.
...
the opposite of hate is not love. instead, the opposite happens to be indifference
we all have a hard time letting go. whether it be feelings, or that old piece of clothing that we absolutely love, it's just so hard to say good-bye. why are we so difficult? why are we stubborn?
...
i'm still missing europe. my 'european' tendencies are sadly wearing off. i'm not as receptive as i want to be. there's something about canada that makes me snobby.
oh what i'd give for my dream to become a reality. easier said than done.
- Music:Beyonce - If I Were a Boy
love it.
is one of my assigned readings for my Philosophy class: 'The Good Life'
Basically, the premise of the article is that when it comes to predicting exactly how you will feel in the future, you are most likely wrong.
Highlights and Questions asked in the article (I'm basically copying and pasting):
How do we predict what will make us happy or unhappy - and then how do we feel after the actual experience?
+ Almost all actions are based on our predictions of the emotional consequences of these events.
+ We humans understand what we want and are adept at improving our well-being - that we are good at maximizing our utility.
+ We falter when it comes to imagining how we will feel about something in the future. It isn't that we get the big things wrong, instead, it's that we overestimate the intensity and the duration of our emotional reaction to future events. In other words, we might believe that a new BMW will make life perfect, but it will almost most certainly be less exciting than we anticipated, nor will it excite us for as long as prescribed.
+ 'You know, you can't always get what you want, I don't think that's the problem. The problem is you can't always know what you want."
+ If it's difficult to figure out what makes us happy in the moment, how can we predict what will make us happy in the future?
+ We don't realize how quickly we will adapt to a pleasurable event and make it the backdrop of our lives. When any event occust to us, we make it ordinary. And through becoming ordinary, we lose our pleasure
in reference to negative events...
+ 'I am like everyone in thinking, I'll never get over this and life will never be good again - Yes, you will.'
For the whole article:
http://query.nytimes.com/g
- Mood:
cynical
